so, studying in school today was quite fine. interesting in fact. except that the pace was similar to anywhere else what with the distractions and stuff. plus that the canteen was extra noisy today. excuses, excuses. and reached home and watched tv till now. not a good habit man. like watching tv serials isn't a good idea while preparing for exams and tests. oh well, then the ns medical checkup tmr. every friend who has gone has told me it's a bloody waste of time. so hoping to go early and get it over. hope everything goes fine. will be going m'sia soon for a few days. hope to get some studying done there. what else could i do there anyway..been feeling tired lately, love sleeping. oh today's physics lesson was interesting. haven't seen some classmates for some time. felt strange, seeing ppl in holiday. i don't know, stuff.

everything i place in God's hands.

takes my breath away.

i'm exhausted. and from doing nothing. i've slackened off the pace quite a bit. oh damn. tiring. was just read looking at the groupings and stuff for gryphons cup. don't think it's a good idea us forming another team. tell the truth, i'd rather be in the ri team. so now, we'll see how it goes. and doesn't help they're in a much eaier group than ours. and imagine, losing against our direect juniors. i can't bear. who do we have up against their guard? shit. game over. look, it's not that i'm trying to pull down the team or what but i'm being more than realistic here. i know it sounds damn bad. i'm sorry for that. sometimes, facts are sad. anyway, had an eventful day yesterday. harry potter was quite good. haha. though when the ting ended i didn't even know. was like sitting there expecting more when the credits came up..strange thing. in the holidays when i'm alone and supposed to be studying, i tend to drift off and dream and think. hmmm why do i keep thinking about sad memories? memories which just won't go away, not that i want to forget. it mean a whole lot to me. i mean looking back i realise what actually really mattered. and this view changes over time. sometimes i just laugh at myself in the past when i did stupid things for dumb reasons. believe, many times. i'd like to believe i've grown from all this. but i really don't know. things change fast, so damn fast. but some things will never change. that's me. i guess.

All alone find a way in your own dream
Looking at you I see the sorrow in your eyes
Here I am been searching for someone
To share my life and dreams
Side by side tenderly fly away with me
Take my hand tell me that your heart is free
Promise me that you'll never go away
You and I we'll build this love together
Forever we'll be as one
Hold me now and touch me now
I'm falling in love with you

This is the time I wanna say I love you
This is the love I wanna last forever
This is the time to say my love is here to stay
I want forever and ever...you'll be mine

You and I we'll build this love together
Forever we'll be as one
Hold me now and touch me now
I'm falling in love with you

i'd better not starting slacking off now. but this week's gonna be quite cannot get work done.. ah the hard part is trying to be productive under such circumstances. whoa i'm like coming up with the hard parts about studying ya. so, tomorrow's going to be quite packed. meeting coach, have to get hair, finally. and catch ha li po te. harry potter. yeah. that's about the only movie i'm gonna watch this hols i guess. must control. btw when is spiderman coming out? haha.. oh today, spent quite some in the morning soccering. it was damn fun. if only we could have played longer. i think i'm damn cock when i play soccer with them. i always say a lot of nonsense. haha. but that j4 getting injured until ambulance had to come onto astro was quite scary. and my parents were just telling me not to play in case. wah scary. then spent 2 hours in coffee bean scotts shopping centre, never gone in there before. haha. talked with 2 good friends quite entertaining. hmm but that's not the point right. it was good. arrgh beter get back to mugging mood again. it was actually quite fun. wah.